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(001) Your gender:
Female all the way, Wait let me look....(opened shirt) Yep Female

(002) Sexual orientation:
straight

(003) Single?
Plan to be for the rest of my life

(004) Do you want to be a train driver?
Train driver? hmph, don't think so

(005) Your birthday:
Dec 2nd I share it with britney spears...(shivers) I was born first!!!

(006) Age you wish you were:
the age I am right now, don't want to go back threw all those years again.

(007) Your height:
5'5"

(008) The color of your eyes:
Green/blue/gray

(009) The color of your hair:
Blonde (bottle job and proud of it)

(010) Piercings:
Ears

(011) Tattoos:
I wanted too, but I'm scared of needles.

(012) Smoke?
everyday but trying to quit

(013) Do drugs?
Hell no, can't tell your kids not to do drugs if you do them..right?

(014) Read the newspaper?
nah, not interested unless its the comics.

(015) Talk to strangers who IM you?
nope, if your not on my list and I don't know you, sorry.

(016) Take walks in the rain?
to cold, plus I might clump..(what a world what a world..does a bad impression of the wicked witch)

(017) Drive?
have to these days

(018) Like to drive fast?
my bronco won't go fast....

(019) Hurt yourself?
Not answering this one

HAVE YOU EVER

(020) Been out of the country?
yep, my father was in the air force for 21 years and my ex was in the army.

(021) Been in love?
Only once

(022) Done drugs?
when I was 16 and never touched it again.

(023) Gone skinny dipping?


(024) Had any type of surgery?
to many to list.

(025) Ran away from home?
once, but then my father came a got me and bought me a milk shake, never said a word to me about leaving and never yelled.

(026) Played strip poker?
Don't know how to play poker

(027) Gotten beaten up?
do ex-husbands count?? (Won't mention my mother)

(028) Been picked on?
again do ex-husbands count?

(029) Been on stage?
once in middle school singing to diana ross and feeling stupid cause the other four girls and I bumbled around like cows in a pasture it was an experence I never wanted to remember, thanks for digging up bad memories...

(030) Slept outdoors?
camping, when I was little

(032) Thought about suicide?
Everyday

(033) Pulled an all-nighter?
yep

(034) If yes, what is your record?
57 hours while I was driving a truck

(035) Talked on the phone all night?
once

(036) Slept with the opposite sex without having sex?
yep

(037) Slept all day?
having a night job will do that to you..so yes.

(038) Killed someone?
thinking about it doesn't count does it?

(039) Made out with a stranger?
not that I know of...

(040) Had sex with a stranger?
nope

(041) Kissed the same sex?
nope, oh wait......nope

(043) Been betrayed?
seriously?

(044) Broken the law?
I'm a goody two shoes...*shame*

(045) Met a famous person?
Linda Lee and she rude to me...it was when I won the Bruce Lee karate turnament (sp?)back when I was like 20 something

(046) Been on radio/TV?
*spits out drink* no way no how...

(047) Been in a mosh-pit?
nope

(048) Had a nervous breakdown?
Of course when I was married to my first ex-husband

(049) Been criticized about your sexual performance?
nope

(050) Had a dream that kept coming back?
have to sleep to dream and I hardly sleep (hence the black circles under my eyes)

APPAREL

(051) Shoe brand:
Skechers (cause I can find them on sale for like 20 bucks at the PX)

(052) What are you normally wearing to school/work?
Blue or green shirt and jeans (walmarts lawn and garden)

(053) Wear hats?
not since I was in the army, I don't look good in hats

(054) Are you guilty of judging other people by their clothing?
Only those who are like 500 pounds trying to pull off a cropped shirt and daisy dukes... come on now? wouldn't you be like....OMG?

(055) Do you wear make-up daily?
Not working in lawn and garden you sweat to much and it would run

(056) Favorite place to shop:
Cato's they always have sales.

(057) Favorite article of clothing:
anything black

(058) Are you trendy:
don't have the money for that...so no.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

(059) Life on other planets:
God I hope so...

(060) Miracles?
sometimes

(061) Astrology?
not so much but I still read mine..lol

(062) Magic?
no

(063) God?
Yes in the way that god is in all of us. (won't go into that)

(064) Satan?
Yes

(066) Ghosts?
I'm a sceptic (sp?) I have to see it to believe it.

(067) Luck?
of course

(068) Love at first sight?
I don't believe in love.

(069) Yin and Yang?
Yep

(070) Witches?
Let me say this about that, if they do anything to anyone it comes back on them 10x and they know it. So yes, I do believe in witches, One of my best friends is a witch and she's the nicest sweetest person I have ever meet and she knows the rules in which her religion expects.

(072) Fidelity?
NO

(073) A pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?
if I ever find it I will grab on with both hands..lol

LOVE

(074) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing this title?


(075) Do you remember your first love?
Yes I do

(076) Still love him/her?
I still care about him and would love to see him again to see how he's doing.

(077) Do you consider love a mistake?
Yes...cause it never last, cause of this time and age, to many young temptations for them to cheat and leave you for someone else.

(078) What do you find romantic?
Some one who would be willing to stick by your side and not let temptation sway them away because of fakeness. oh and flowers without having to ask for them.

(079) Turn-on:
Eyes, (asain eyes of course) a nice smile and clean body, nice smelling.

(080) Turn-off:
liers and bad breath

(081) Do you base your judgment on looks alone?
it's nice if they are a bit cute, but I don't care if they are short, tall, fat, skinny, Just not tooooooo old. I do like younger men.

(082) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?
yea, and that they except the invatation...I don't ask anyone out though.

(083) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?
Of course and wouldn't you know it, they dissed me...hmph.

(084) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?
Never asked

(085) What's the last present someone gave you?
No one's given me a present, I give the presents.

(086) Are you in love?
Don't believe in love anymore

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...

(087) That made you laugh?
havent laughed in a while, been to bummed

(088) That laughed at you?
Everyone, They laugh at me everyday

(089) That turned you on?
YAZOO!!!!!

(090) You went shopping with?
My daughter for food.

(091) To disappoint you?
The last guy that I thought was different but turned out he was like all the rest.

(092) To ask you out?
It's been to long to remember

(093) To make you cry?
My daughter two days ago

(094) To brighten up your day?
To long to remember

(095) That you thought about?
yesterday, The last guy that screwed me over...Jerk

(096) You saw a movie with?
Been to long to remember

(097) You talked to on the phone?
yesterday to ask a friend if she could help me move, she has a truck

(098) You talked to through IM?
a few weeks ago, Thien, to ask him about a movie he might be able to find for me, but he said it wasn't out in the free section, which makes me mad cause I really want to see it. (julie and julia) it's only on paid sites that I can't afford. *grrrrrs*

(099) You saw?
I don't see anyone. I stay at home all the time unless you mean work. Then it was Anna, Yesterday (the lady I'm moving in with)

(100) You turned down?
A few weeks ago, At a guy that came up to me and asked if he could call me, only after seeing me for 3 seconds. I was like are you kidding?

(101) Smiled?
today, At the Golden girls

(102) Laughed?
today, wife swap cause it's a stupid show.

(103) Cried?
yesterday

(104) Bought something?
Tape for boxes yesterday

(105) Danced?
Been to long to remember

(107) Hugged/kissed someone?
my daughter, a few days ago

(108) Talked to an enemy?
Don't have to many enemys

(109) Watched your favorite movie?
I can't ever watch a favorite movie without me having to pause it 50 times. Mel back me up here...LOL

(110) Talked on the phone?
Yesterday didn't we answer this?

(111) Listened to the radio?
a few days ago in my bronco..

(112) Watched TV?
still watching it.

(113) Went out?
Been a long time

(114) Helped someone?
about a week ago when I bought a friend at work a t-shirt cause he was soaked from the rain and I didn't want him to catch a cold.

(115) Sang?
I don't sing so I don't remember

(116) Said "I love you"?
EEEEEEEEEEEEEkkkk, Unless my daughter counts, it was last night

(117) Got drunk?
18 years ago, this I do remember.


if you want to do this be my guest..Not really a tag but enjoy!!


take care and be safe!

back to packing, man I wish this rain would stop so I can get my furniture moved...*sighs*

tomorrow will be a busy day packing up so much crap. I sure have more stuff than I can fit in my car now.

I'm dreadin it...*grumbles* But it has to be done.

Oh hey does anyone remember the artist called Divine? I think that's her name, she used to draw the Sephy manga?
I can't find her on here anymore? is anyone friends with her? is she doing okay?

BTW I've given up on trying to draw people, I just can't do it, my people look horried and I can't stand not getting it right. Even the chibis are lookng awful so I say screw it, I'll let my kids have all that talent and pay someone to do my drawing of people instead. Of course finding someone who's willing to spend the time to do it is another thing. They would have to be ready for me to ask for changes. My youngest said I should try and put my books into manga form but I don't know if that would work. It might work since I have the whole story and to see it set in mange form with a touch of chibi-ness would be cool.


Thanks for all the faves I have gotten over the last few days. I'm honored.

take care and be safe.

Not sure if I said this or not, but I gotta move, I have no choice now. I just got a new elecric bill and I about fainted. it's over 400 now. MY god how am I ever going to pay that??

My friend at work who's the mother of my daughters boyfriend, (say that 5 times fast) is going to let me stay with her. I really hope it works out cause I really don't want to go back to my mothers. If you read my blog you would know why.

It rained today and my wrist killed me all day Let me tell you this thing is drving me insane. I hate Pain!!!

That's about it I think, I can't remember everything. I am old okay??

oh my daughter said she would get me a subscription, I hope she keeps her word on that these ad's are slowing the page down. I guess I didn't win the drawing contest I entered...

oh yeah anyone know where I could find tutorials on how to draw chibis? I found some but they don't go into detail like how to do bodys and actions so to speak. any help would be nice. thanks in advance.

take care and be safe

thanks for the support I needed it and I am grantful. sometimes someone just needs the extra hugs even if they are mental, it still counts in my book.

Instead of always burdening everyone here about my problems I decided to make a blog, yes a blog. but I'm not really calling it a blog, It's more of an on line journal where I can rant and cry and do what ever I choose to that way I don't have to worry about putting them here and wasting peoples time and effort to have to read it. But if you want you can always go there at your own risk. [link] Don't say I didn't warn you though. It's set to a warning cause theres cuss words all over it.

I will try to place positive things here..."try" being the key word.

I do have some good news. I'm not sure if anyone knows this or not but I've become a buddist and well I have always wanted my own Gohonzon (It's a form of scroll with writings on it that we use to focus our chatting. Tina Turner is also a Nichiren Buddhist)Anyway, I was giving the honor of finally given one. Most of the time you have to pay for it to show that your goal is to become a full busshist, but I never had the money to get one so My friends (chong and ocha) got me one cause they knew that I need the full force of the Gohonzon to help with my situation. I couldn't believe that they did that for me but they did and now I have one. of course I don't have a shrine to place it in and it's still in the box that it came in cause your not supposed to take it out of the box until you have a place to put it. They beleive it is an extention of your body and that if you let people play with it then they are playing with your soul so to speak. You can read about it right here if you like [link] It's not a bad thing to want to do, I have been doing this for a about a year now and sometimes it helps me and sometimes it doesn't (hence the melt downs due to me not chanting like I'm supposed to) But they say if you chant and wish for something it will come true and it did a few times. I chanted for my income tax to come and it did a week later, I chanted that I would find a job and I did two days later. Now I'm chatting to win the powerball...lol I hope it comes true. I do keep coming close I did win 4 bucks and I never won before. But I want the powerball even if it's only a million..lol I'm not greedy..not really...shut up!!!

But as soon as I get the chance to get a shine for my Gohonzon i will take a photo and show it off..
OMG, I was over a friends (mrs Shaw, she's japanese) house who has a shine for hers and she told me that she had paid a total of 50 grand for all of hers and it's HUGE!!!! I don't need one that big. I mean her gong/bell bowl (what ever they are called) alone was the size of a beach ball and that's huge. I really don't need one that big...plus I don't have any place to put it right now. So if I win the lottery I can get a house and one room devoted for my Gohonzon. that would be cool. I have noticed that many of the members have theres in the living room even as big as they are. My friend Yoshi has hers in her spare room and it's small. I like the size of hers.

anyway that to me is good news. finially getting my Gohonzon and being able to have more of a chance for my dreams to come come. I will wish to meet an asain man that looks like yazoo that will fall in love with me at first glance and want to wisk me away to japan to live there for ever...hey it's my dream okay...so hush!!

well you all take care and be safe...

I won't tell you what my mother did to me a few days ago...that one is on my blog.

I just noticed that my journal entrys are very sporadic..I really should come here more often but real life jumps in the way...

yes I had another meltdown where I cried all day and couldn't stop. This stress is really getting to me, I finding I'm having these neltdowns more and more because of the stress.

If it's not my mother laying the biggest guilt trip on me, it's me not having enough money for rent or my bills. or it's my truck falling apart slowy before my eyes, or it's my youngest snapping at me at every turn. I can't blame it on my love life since I don't have a love life to mention, I thought I did but he doesn't talk to me as much as I thought he would so I've gotten to the point where I am just going to not worry about him, if he calls he calls. Not sweating it.

So hence the meltdowns.

anyway, I'm trying not to be so depressed but it's not working. if you don't know how it works then it's hard to explain why it's so hard to not be depressed so much. I had one person tell me I have to just let it go, but it's not that easy. so why do people tell you that? It's not like I can turn it off and on, know what I mean?

But I'm trying with little results.

oh well I just thought I would share...

Take care and be safe everyone.

and thanks to all the new watchers and faves that I have gotten over the last few days. I sware I will go and tell each of you thank you as soon as I can and I get rid of this headache from hell..