EDIT: OH MY GOD!!! now he's bitching about the smoke and I was outside, OUTSIDE in the open air and not anywhere near the door and he says he could smell it. Give me a f****** break!!! I'm outside and he's bitching about smelling smoke, how stupid is that???
Now I can't even stand outside and smoke, it's bad enough I pay freaking rent and I can't smoke in the house but now I can't even smoke outside??? fuck this shit, that's it I am outta here the first chance I get. I'm tiered of his stupidity. He goes and get a large pizza and bread sticks and some other thing from dominos and does he offer any to me or my pookie??? NO, he sits and eats it all by himself. and I'm supposed to offer some to him or let him have whats left over?? Not anymore. He's a freaking pig. I hate people like this, ones that are so selffish and then expect you to do for them. Now I know why his wife left him, he's a pig. a selffish pig that only thinks of himself and doesn't care who he hurts.

okay I'm done...idiot I sware...




You all know that I moved in with the cowboy that I thought was going to be cool, but turns out he's an ass hole (excuse my french here) no wonder he's not married.

My mother has been sick and of course I thought she was faking it cause she does fake things just to get me to come up there and feel sorry for her, but this time there is something wrong with her so I left to go up to make sure she was going to be alright, she had to go in for an MRI and we won't know anything until she gets the results back on them. But I told the Cowboy that I was going and he was okay with it. The day I left I get a call about 2 hours of driving and he is bitching me out for leaving...I was thinking "oh my god he's acting like we're married." tells me I didn't leave him a note saying I was going and that I didn't give him my share of the rent. Well in all honesty I didn't make enough to give him all of it but I figured that he would pay the extra 200 that he OWES me cause I loaned him the money to pay his community service thingy with part of my rent money. But he of course didn't see it that way and tells me, that my mothers not important enough and that I should have stayed here another week cause she wasn't dieing or anything, and then tells me it's not going to work and that he was only giving it another week (he's still here) and all this after he had been drinking of course (fucking drunk ass bastard). Let me tell you, I was pissed off. I started crying while I was driving and had to pull over to get my thoughts back in order and swore he wasn't getting shit from me. I know why he was giving it another week, cause he thought my income tax check was coming and well guess what? It's not. He thinks he's going to get 500 from me Like I owe him money I don't think so. But I finially told him that He wasn't getting shit and that he needed to find another source for his cash flow. I also told him that he owed me 200 and he should've covered the rest of what I owed for the rent without bitching me out for 115.00 bucks. Yesterday he asks me about the income tax and I said it won't be here for another 2 or 3 weeks and he says. "I don't care to much about paying my friend back the 500 as long as we get caught up on the bills." What does that sound like to you? Like I'm going to be paying the bills right? his tone was in this mannor like I was going to be getting us caught up on bills, I paid 100 toward the ele and there is 76 left. he didn't pay the rest. I gave him a total of 275 for my share of the rent which btw is only 262, he used the rest to go get drunk, I gave it to him thursday. Yeah.....okay.

I also told him that as soon as it shows up we will be looking for a new place to live, (he thinks I was kidding) he had the nerve to tell pookie that he could get anyone to move into my room in a heart beat, well do it then. ask me if I f****** care. He's got it made with me being here cause all he has to do is make up some sad sap story and I will fall for it and hand him money. Why do I do that? cause I help friends ask anyone, If I have it and I can spare it I will give my last 10 bucks to a friend with the honor that I will be paided back. And with him not willing to do that there is no way in hell that I will give him the 500 he asked for when he filled bankrupcy (sp?) screw him, he has to pay his friend back with someone elses money, not mine. I even think he promised the land lord that I would pay the rest of the deposit to him, I don't think so since I paid 500 to get us in here, I think it's his turn he makes more then me and gets paid every week. He gets 25.00 an hour I get 7.50 so whos the one that can afford things? HE CAN! It's not my fault he puts himself in debt by borrowing money from his friends and not paying them back. The money train stops here and his ass is being kicked off. I just know if the land lord asks me for more money I will tell him get it from the cowboy, he makes more then I do and I am moving out. I will not be used anymore, I will not be stepped on anymore. It all stops here.

But with all that said, a co worker said I could move in with her as soon as her daughter and son in law move out, I didn't ask or anything she offered us the rooms. so I think I will do that until I find something of my own. There are places around and if Im careful I can find one that's cheap and clean.

I just wish things would start getting better and my life would turn out good instead of all this grief I have been going threw over the last few years. I wonder if my ex's new wiffy didn't put some kind of bad hex thing on me cause she is wicken and she does have things that are mine. so I wonder...hmm

anyway that's it for now I'm off to color another line art drawing I found.

take care and be safe

Ja-na

OH and btw thanks to everyone who has faved something of mine. I know I haven't added anything new in a long time and most of that is due to me not having the enegy to do much cause I work so much. Oh on a happy note. I sold 2 of my necklaces that I made for 30 bucks one for 20 and the other for 10! I'm proud that I made someone else happy with my work. She even got the one that took me a couple of days to make cause of the weaving I did to the strap that goes around the neck, bad thing is, is that I forgot to take photos of them to be able to make another one, but I look at it this way at least it's a one of a kind and there will not be another one like it made by me at least. so she has the orginal...lol

so if I ever become famious, she can say she has something I made...

Oh and one more thing...

Happy Birthday to my oldest who will be turning 25 tomorrow! man I'm getting old..lol NO I"M NOT!!!!!