yes I had another meltdown where I cried all day and couldn't stop. This stress is really getting to me, I finding I'm having these neltdowns more and more because of the stress.

If it's not my mother laying the biggest guilt trip on me, it's me not having enough money for rent or my bills. or it's my truck falling apart slowy before my eyes, or it's my youngest snapping at me at every turn. I can't blame it on my love life since I don't have a love life to mention, I thought I did but he doesn't talk to me as much as I thought he would so I've gotten to the point where I am just going to not worry about him, if he calls he calls. Not sweating it.

So hence the meltdowns.

anyway, I'm trying not to be so depressed but it's not working. if you don't know how it works then it's hard to explain why it's so hard to not be depressed so much. I had one person tell me I have to just let it go, but it's not that easy. so why do people tell you that? It's not like I can turn it off and on, know what I mean?

But I'm trying with little results.

oh well I just thought I would share...

Take care and be safe everyone.

and thanks to all the new watchers and faves that I have gotten over the last few days. I sware I will go and tell each of you thank you as soon as I can and I get rid of this headache from hell..